Why good morning, friends. As of three days ago, I have a new tattoo, and I wanted to share it with you. It’s a small one, but of all my tattoos, this one is the dearest to my heart.
Right after Ronnie James died, I suddenly, desperately wanted to apply ink to his little paw pads and press his paw onto paper. It wasn’t a thought I’d taken the time to formulate beforehand. As much as I’d tried to prepare myself, his passing was harder for me than I’d imagined it could be, and in the aftermath, I wanted something of him that would stay with me forever.
Since it was a last-minute decision, we were ill-prepared. The inks in Callaghan’s studio yielded fuzzy prints, but we thought we could work with them. They were certainly better than nothing. My idea was to have his paw print indelibly inked on the inside of my wrist, where I could see it all the time. I wanted a permanent, visual remembrance of how Ronnie James loved to touch me, and of how comforting and sweet his touch had been.
When our house-calling vet brought the Wrah-Wrah’s cremains home to us two days later, she surprised us with another sheet of paper on which she’d stamped some lovely, clear Wrah-Wrah prints, a thoughtful gesture that touched us deeply. I vacillated between my two favorites before deciding on this one:
Callaghan loved it and decided to get the same tattoo. We went to the Club Tattoo down the street here in Tempe to make an appointment with the person who’d done my last (spiral of hearts) tattoo. We made our double appointment for Saturday afternoon.
I explained to our tattooist that I wanted the tattoo to look smudgy and real, as if Ronnie James’ inked paw had been pressed directly onto my wrist. He expertly used four shades of black/gray to achieve the effect with shading. I’m extremely pleased with how it turned out. I absolutely adore it.
And here’s a bad selfie, just for fun. (How do people take mirror selfies, anyway? It never worked out the few times I tried it. It must be an art form.)
Callaghan loves his tattoo, as well. He asked to have the print altered just a tiny bit, and we wanted ours angled slightly differently, and he positioned his further down his wrist than mine, and he has his on his left wrist, while mine is on my right… so our Wrah-Wrah prints aren’t exactly identical. The Wrah-Wrah loved us both, but differently. He touched us both, but differently.
The Wrah-Wrah is Forever.
2 thoughts on “The Wrah-Wrah’s paw print.”
Kristi, I’m sorry I didn’t comment right away. I just wanted to let you know that I 100% understand how much you loved your Wrah-Wrah and I know that it will be difficult to heal, and maybe you will never fully heal, but I am here for you; truly and fully. The greatest thing rant is fully true is that Ronnie James KNEW how much he was loved by his parents. He knows that you did everything in your power to give him the life he deserved. I know that for a fact and he does too. I love you, Kristi!
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Hi Kayla, I’m just reading your beautiful comment now, and I’m so touched and grateful to know that I have a friend like you! I know that you understand how much I loved my Wrah-Wrah, and that there are no words to express how awful it feels to have lost him. I’m especially unable to keep myself from thinking of the ways in which I failed him, and it’s killing me. If I could just go back in time *just this once* so I could do everything over again, I know how I would do it differently in order to save him. He knew how tremendously loved he was, and I hope that he knows, too, how sorry I am. Anyway, thank you for listening and for being there. I love you, too!